Leadership: The Right Way

I am closer and closer to reaching my goals each day lately. In the recent past, I would have given up by now...and let myself sink deeper and deeper. Not these days though...I am feeling a huge sense of relief. I am also feeling stronger inside and at peace with myself and others...even if I have felt wrongly treated by them. In the past, it was so hard for me to forgive someone without the person actually being sorry. I think if we unconditionally forgive someone for what we perceive as negative actions towards us, then we will consequently bring peace upon ourselves and others.

I have, in the past, let people get me down by their attitudes and actions. It felt as if I was taking on the weight of the world sometimes. Not so much anymore...it seems as though things go in one ear and out the other...bothered for a sec then let go of it lately. I am feeling a sense of accomplishment with my attitude of not letting others get the best of me, nor caring about whatever judgemental misinterpretation they may think based upon my past actions or what seems to shine through on the outside. You can't judge a book by it's cover, that's for certain.

I believe that people can be easily misguided, especially these days. When the wrong "leaders" get into the power chair...it can easily set a bad tone. Of course, it does take the perfect mix to make a good cocktail...LOL...by that I mean when people that are easily mislead follow these so-called "I have no filter...I just say what I want without caring about the consequences and how it is going to effect others" type people...it makes for bad karma. By that, I mean...the followers feel enpowered and happy go lucky...but they are not realizing that even though they are left with these so called "good" feelings inside...they are losing a sense of themselves and own uniqueness. In doing this they are going to be judged by others for the wrong and misguiding actions of the leaders their following, when in fact, they may actually hold their own values and opinions inside.

Then there are those that actually listen to everything they hear, especially when told info by certain "leaders", and make judgements based solely around this. They are only making division by doing this, as well as a negative environment for other people. They are choosing to live in this false, corrupt world of drama...and are bound to clearly end up on the wrong path completely if they continue to engage in these behaviors over and over. They may be choosing to do so for different reasons, like avoiding their own problems. It's so easy to pick apart someone else, for the sake of not having to face one's own harsh reality. Filling a void like this will only bring people farther away from the ultimate desires they are trying to fulfill inside.

Again, I may be trying to change the world again, which I clearly am aware I can not do, but this may get through to someone out there that is unaware of their actions, or that is aware...but has not actually taken the time to really think about what misguiding others or what being misguided acutally means and the consequences it will bear. I am only trying to make a better, more positive atmosphere in the world. It seems like there's not enough of this these days, and since I feel the drive to bring good change...why not go with it.

Lastly, I want to address the positive leaders and my views on the "right" leadership. There is the other side, as with everything out there...those with good leadership skills. In following my value system and heart, I have chosen to be lead by who I consider to be good leaders/ role models so far...and therefore choose to be guided by.  Just because most of us are not born to be leaders, however, doesn't mean that we can't help guide others toward what we think is the right direction.  Good leadership is hard to find these days, as it takes a lot to be a good leader, such as a strong sense of oneself and courage to stand up for what one believes in, as well as many other traits. Only certain people bring forth good leadership (or are striving to do so)...but those of us being lead can choose who we are pursuaded and lead by for whatever reasons we individually consider... the "right" way in our hearts and minds. We are all raised by a specific value system, but it's up to us individually let the values that we consider to be positive, worthy one's come forth and then the other good values will be gained as we go along (such as by good decisions)....building our own unique value system in the end. This is when we can truly be sure we are being directed by the "right" leader and the "good" leader can be truly sure of that they are leading right...a win win scenario for all and one that will make the world a better place for everyone.

THE CLIMB Lyrics - MILEY CYRUS

THE CLIMB Lyrics - MILEY CYRUS

Don't Regret Past Mistakes - Embrace Them by Ken Harness

Don't Regret Past Mistakes - Embrace Them by Ken Harness

There Is A Candle In Your Heart by Rumi

There Is A Candle In Your Heart by Rumi

The Light at the End of the Tunnel

I am finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel with the post partum depression....my ultimate goal though....to be out of this tunnel altogether. This has been a long, painful journey...but "whatever doesn't break you, makes you stronger", right? It has been like being on an emotional rollercoaster. After having more education on PPD by reading other women's blogs, as well as having some supportive, courageous women come forth with sharing their own unique post partum experiences, I realized I wasn't so alone with what I have been dealing with emotionally. It would help other women going through this, as I feel it has helped me, to have this courageous and non-judgemental support continue to examplify towards releasement of the stigma and isolation that is felt with post partum depression.

I would like to address how much of a role good support can play into effective treatment of PPD. Luckily, I have had some good support from my husband, my family, and my husband's family....as well as certain good friends too that were very caring, insightful, and loving at a time of great need for it. I very much appreciate all the support I have received along the way. I did also face others who were not very supportive, judgemental, insensitive, or lacked in understanding. I began to realize that it would ultimately come down to finding the strength in myself...very hard to do in this vulnerable time...and I feel God played a big role in bringing me to this particular level. I will continue working on this spirituality, as it has made such a big impact on my recovery.

There are many key factors necessary in good treatment for PPD...medications, therapy, etc...but everyone's particular PPD case is a different scenario...so what works for one person, may not work for another. I think recovery involves a total package...therapy, medications if needed and exercise for me was key in trying to achieve balance...as well as sleep, diet, etc. Harder said than done, especially for moms of infants...but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. So if anyone is struggling with post partum depression...you definetely don't see the light for what seems like eternity...but have faith because with the right balance of the key factors I previously mentioned, you will find it eventually and will slowly find yourself again.

For me exercise is huge because it releases endorphins....those feel good brain chemicals...which can help with your ability to combat daily stresses, as well as give you the well needed energy that you're lacking. This has proven to work well for me, as exhibited by the way I feel immediately after a work out....huge fluctuation in endorphins!! I will always continue to exercise for as long as I can, as it has been a huge aspect in the PPD treatment for me. I will not give up the fight...even though some days are still really tough...I am "keeping my eye on the prize"....to get the hell out of this tunnel for good and put this bad experience behind me once and for all.

Breaking the Silence

Today, is a day of clarity and self awareness for me, and this realization has driven me to want to make a difference in other's awareness of postpartum depression... and what a girl never tells. For so long, our society has put such a stigma on mental disorders, and with Postpartum Depression being so common for many women...why the silence anymore?? It's time others have more compassion and understanding of various disorders like this...and I am on a mission to make this happen.

I would not feel so strongly about this, if I hadn't just been to hell and back myself. The experience I just lived, no one should have to live through on their own. Now in my present state of mind of clarity, see myself in a whole different light, and am ready to confront and put behind me, this battle with my own emotions that I have been facing for so many months now...and in the end...if it helps and gets through to even just one person ...I will feel gratified.

I want to be heard and understood...but realize that may never happen with many...but for the few of you out there that do have the emotional intelligence to comprehend this, I choose to continue. I have gained much strength and insight from my experience, but have suffered deeply along the way. I have, without my understanding, felt this strong sense of spiritual guidance, that has given me that hand needed to pull me out of the deep hole I had been thrown into with the hardships of postpartum depression.

I decided to let go of my faith in other people so much to help fix my problems, and opened my heart and soul up to the unknown sense of spirituality that had, as though it seemed, to all of a sudden enter my life amidst the turmoil. It was then, that I knew in my heart and soul...as I have never felt so awakened in my whole life...that we are not alone inside in this journey of life and all we have to do to gain this spirituality and inner strength, is truly open up our hearts and mind, and have faith in the power and love of God.

Today is the day that I've decided, to start sharing with other's my experiences with postpartum depression and break the silence I have been living with these past months. I am driven to help spread the word about how I feel having faith in God can help with all healing processes, in those that believe and decide to truly open up their hearts to God's power and love.